Well, I definitely have mixed emotions this holiday season. I was lucky to have M around for Thanksgiving and Christmas last year. This year will be strange. I went to a vegan Thanksgiving potluck, it was so weird to be able to eat everything and not worry about butter, and eggs and things. Plus, I was surrounded by 200 other people who were vegans, or were open minded to eating vegan, and everything was so delicious, I think even a meat eater would have loved it. However, I didn't eat raw on Thanksgiving, I felt guilty about it, I tried to push those thoughts aside, but it was difficult. I felt like I was cheating on raw. I don't even want to feel confined by my diet, but today on my run I could definitely tell it was more difficult for me.
I guess I am just lonely. My mom left for NY yesterday, so I was alone, and will be for the next week. I am tired and weary of going through life by myself. I wish M were here. He should be here to visit soon, but I don't want to get my hopes up too high, in case anything wrong happens.
Today, the day after Thanksgiving, all the Christmas decorations in my neighborhood went up. I think these people just love to decorate for Christmas, when I am still riding my bike with shorts on. Though, it has gotten pretty chilly, I even had to put the heater on in my room, because the house was around 70, and 60 outside. Brr!! I don't think it will last though.
I think I have decided that I never want to do anything just because other people are. Christmas, for example. I don't want to celebrate it just because its the thing to do, I don't have the religious beliefs, and I certainly don't believe in spending lots of money and buying lots of material items just because the holiday condones overindulgence. If I do it, I want to do it my way, for what I believe in. Right now I am a little turned off by it all. The holidays don't mean much when you are all alone. I just wish M were here. I just can't help but think about all the millions of people who feel horrible today because they overate yesterday, how is this okay? Just because the entire world did that, drives me to not be one of them.

Cuteness personified.

Green Christmas wrapping ideas: Old maps (who uses them anymore, with GPS's now) and scraps of fabric for ribbons! Anything to not buy more paper and plastic products.
Raw banana cream pie I made for the vegan Thanksgiving potluck.